Let me know what struggles you are going through with this subject.***
There is so much attached to losing weight – the diet, the exercise, the excitement you feel as you see the numbers on the scale go down. But there is sooooo much more than that.
Since January 1st, I have seen my weight go down by 30 pounds (yay me)! Most of this was accomplished by changing what I ate and becoming more conscious of what I am putting in my body.
I don’t think I have ever kept weight off for this long before…I like it.
Here’s the thing. It also scares the CRAP out of me. I’ve only told one person this so far, and it feels good to share with the rest of you.
I’ve come so far, but I am always afraid that I am one In-N-Out meal away from going back to my old way of eating. What about the stressful weeks at work and home where it makes nearly impossible to meal plan and cook homemade meals? Will one week be enough to throw me off the wagon?
I could easily get rid of all my bigger clothes, but I worry about what will happen if I gain all the weight back and I need to wear them again?
What the eff is wrong with me?!?! I have spent 9 months losing this weight and THAT is what I worry about? Haven’t I shown enough commitment to myself to even lose 30 pounds and keep it off??
Don’t get me wrong…I am beyond proud of myself and know just how hard I have had to work to get to this point. I look in the mirror and don’t cringe anymore…some days I even smile. I notice how I am more confident in the way I hold myself, the way I walk, speak, etc.
So why am I scared of failure?
I know I cannot be the only one out there with these fears. Right??